ten thousand angels

I'm not sure why he did it; maybe God just spoke to him (this is highly likely) - but my friend Josh dedicated a music video to me last night on iLike (which is a Facebook app for those who wondered). It hit my heart exactly where I needed it to when I watched it this morning. So thank you, Josh. And thank You, Jesus, for the reminder that while dark nights of the soul come in many shapes and sizes and are about many things, there is always morning, always a new day, always new mercy, and always You. Love truly has come for me, and He rejoices over me with singing. (Zephaniah 3:17)

It has been an angsty couple of days; lots of emotions, mostly sadness - some explicable, and some ... just there. Wrestling with more than a few things mentally, spiritually, emotionally... Some of it I will post on later this weekend, I hope (time permitting).

I am learning not to do this:

(HT: The Ongoing Adventures of ASBO Jesus)

And to maybe begin to do this a little more frequently:

(again, HT: ASBO Jesus)

and learning that I can because this song is true:

Some of my favorite lines from the song*:

how long you have traveled in darkness weeping
no rest in language, no words to speak
but there in the wreckage beneath bricks and bindings
love has come, love has come for you

...
everything worth keeping comes through dying
...

so lift up your heart now, to this unfolding
all that has been broken will be restored
...

*This song is called Ten Thousand Angels. It was written by Sandra McCracken and is performed here by her husband, Derek Webb; I believe it's a bonus track on the latest Caedmon's Call album, Overdressed. Don't quote me on that, tho.