that... was incredible

So preaching Monday night was probably one of the coolest things I have ever done. I was really nervous going in (but you knew that!) and as I stood in front of all those people and Mark prayed over me, the expected and dreaded adrenaline rush hit, and I thought, oh no! I'm a goner... oh, Lord, please help!

And He did. :)

I was totally fine, and while I know I have years worth of growing to do, and that there are probably a dozen ways in which it could have been better - that was a really good first run. And it feels strange to say that, like it's prideful or something, but I feel like I had so little to do with it - really, I'm just grateful, because there are so many ways I could have totally screwed that up, and I didn't. In fact, God really used me to speak, and I'm sure I don't even have a clue as to half of what He did. I am so honored, and so humbled, that He would do that...

And afterwards, a handful of people were waiting around to talk to me, to tell me how God had spoken to them, and to tell me their stories about hard things going on in their lives - and I got to pray with them, and see God at work in ways I could never have anticipated Sunday night, as I sat editing and re-editing, and doing my best just to be faithful to His word and what was kind of on my heart to say... It didn't go perfectly - but that didn't seem to matter - God's Word just went out and did what it does - and to be allowed to carry it was just an immense privilege... I'm honestly not even sure that it's really sunk in yet... I actually preached ... and it went well!

10 comments:

Mike said...

OK. I left a comment on your last post praying for you and it went away into never never land. But at least know that I was praying for you and had confidence that you would do just fine.

Happy said...

thanks, Mike! :) i'm sad i never saw your comment... but so thankful for your prayers.

Ruth said...

Awesome! You are living out your calling.

So where's the podcast?

Happy said...

lol... well, they *did* tape it... :)

Brad said...

First off, the layout is incredible! Secondly, you are a very gifted speaker. You were very natural up there and I was blessed to be there!

Love ya Hap!
Brad

Tara said...

There ya go. Isn't He cool? Just step in and then get outta the way girl....
Wish I could have heard you. I know they tape my stuff when I do it too...and the strange thing is to sit and listen to it afterwars...so weird...it's like..'is that me' and 'wow, that's me?'....it just so awesome to be used. Props for your courage girl and for your awesome reverance to the word!! Hugs.

Happy said...

Brad, thanks! That means a lot, coming from you. And thanks for the kudos on the layout (tho really it's all Erin and the very nice people who designed the template and gave her something to work with.) :)

Tara - I have to say I have mixed feelings about the mp3 that's headed my way this week... :) I don't know if they'll let me post it or not, but if I'm not mortified at how I sound I might ask. ;) it's always weird hearing your own voice.

Ruth said...

Oh pleeeese post it if they let you. Don't be bashful!! Your fans from afar want to hear too.

Happy said...

we'll see. :) at the very least, i will email you and maybe send you a copy by post. lol...

Ruth said...

Bless you!